Illusion

by Nicholas Breeze Wood

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Since things neither exist nor don't exist,
are neither real nor unreal,
are utterly beyond adopting and rejecting -
one might as well burst out laughing

Longchenpa Rabjampa -
Tibetan Nyingmapa master, C14th

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released July 1, 2008

Recorded between Spring 2006 and Summer 2008

All tracks written by Nicholas Breeze Wood,
with the exception of:
A Chanter M'er - Beatriz, Comtessa de Dia, C1180
Gusta Magla Mi Padala - anon, medieval Serbia
The House Carpenter - word and music traditional
Mwashah - anon, 8th century Islamic Spain
Reason to Mourn - words and music Ben Harper

All tracks arranged and played by Nicholas Breeze Wood,
with the exception of the Balkan bagpipes
on Gusta Magla Mi Padala, courtesy
of an unknown Balkan musician

Nicholas Breeze Wood:
acoustic, electric and bass guitars ❖ oud
baglama saz ❖ cura saz ❖ setar ❖ banjo
rebec ❖ sinfonye (medieval hurdygurdy)
six-hole pipes ❖ accordion ❖ keyboards
piano ❖ frame drums ❖ vox

Recorded at Anghorfa, Abercych,
Pembrokeshire, West Wales

Album cover by Rolffimages

To Faith, Becky & Sofy

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Multi instrumentalist singer-songwriter drawing on rock, Arabic and Medieval music, using instruments from all those traditions

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Track Name: Hexagram of Heaven
‘You think you’re living in heaven,
But you’re living in Hell.
You think you’re living in heaven,
Oh time will tell’.

You know when I was young I used to think,
Six strings could change the whole wide world.
I still have a dream that that’s true believe it or not,
That the right song will make it all unfurl,

But in a million years from now – give or take,
When human unkind’s race is run,
Who’s going to notice these things anyway,
‘Cos there’ll still be life beneath the sun.

So I’m going to dance with these six strings,
Raise a toast to the last glass of fossil fuel,
And in a most compassionate way…

Well I guess the worlds still here,
And human unkind too.
And in a most compassionate way,
I have to say.
And in a most compassionate way,
I have to play.

I do believe that it can change the world,
Got to be worth a try.

Come dance with me.
Track Name: A Chanter M'er
A chantar m'er de so qu'eu no volria,
(I must sing of what I do not want,)
tant me rancur de lui cui sui amia;
(I am so angry with the one whom I love,)
car eu l'am mais que nuilla ren que sia:
(Because I love him more than anything:)
vas lui no.m val merces ni cortezia
(Mercy nor courtesy moves him,)
ni ma beltatz ni mos pretz ni mos sens;
(Neither does my beauty, nor my worthiness,
nor my good sense,)

c'atressi.m sui enganad' e trahia
(For I am deceived and betrayed)
Com degr' esser, s'eu fos dezavinens
(As much as I should be, if I were ugly.)

D'aisso.m conort, car anc non fi faillensa,
(I take comfort because I never did anything wrong,)
Amics, vas vos per nuilla captenenssa;
(Friend, towards you in anything,)
ans vo am mais non fetz Seguis Valensa,
(Rather I love you more than Seguin did Valensa,)
e platz mi mout quez eu d'amar vos vensa,
(And I am greatly pleased that I conquered you in love,)

lo meus amics, car etz lo plus valens;
(My friend, because you are the most worthy;)
mi faitz orgoil en digz et en parvensa,
(You are arrogant to me in words and appearance,)
et si etz francs vas totas autras gens.
(And yet you are so friendly towards everyone else.)

Meraveill me cum vostre cors s'orgoilla,
(I wonder at how you have become so proud,)
amics, vas me, per qui'ai razon queu.m doilla;
(Friend, towards me, and I have reason to lament;)
non es ges dreitz c'autr' amors vos mi toilla,
(It is not right that another love take you away from me)
per nuilla ren que.us diga ni acoilla.
(No matter what is said or granted to you)
E membre vos cals fo.l comensamens
(And remember how it was at the beginning)
de nostr'amor! Ja Dompnedeus non voilla
(Of our love! May Lord God never wish)
qu'en ma colpa sia.l departimens.
(That it was my fault for our separation.)

Proeza grans, qu'el vostre cors s'aizina
(The great prowess that dwells in you)
e lo rics pretz qu'avetz, m'en ataïna,
(And your noble worth retain me,)
c'una non sai, loindana ni vezina,
(For I do not know of any woman, far or near,)
si vol amar, vas vos no si' aclina;
(Who, if she wants to love, would not incline to you;)
mas vos, amics, etz ben tant conoissens
(But you, friend, have such understanding)
que ben devetz conoisser la plus fina;
(That you can tell the best,)
e membre vos de nostres partimens.
(And I remind you of our sharing.)

Valer mi deu mos pretz e mos paratges
(My worth and my nobility should help me,)
e ma beutatz e plus mos fins coratges;
(My beauty and my fine heart;)
per qu'eu vos man lai on es vostr' estatges
(Therefore, I send this song down to you)
esta chanson, que me sia messatges:
(So that it would be my messenger.)
e voill saber, lo meus bels amics gens,
(I want to know, my fair and noble friend,)
per que vos m'etz tant fers ni tant salvatges;
(Why you are so cruel and savage to me;)
no sai si s'es orgoills o mal talens.
(I don't know if it is arrogance or ill will.)

Mais aitan plus voill li digas, messatges,
(But I especially want you, messenger, to tell him)
qu'en trop d'orgoill an gran dan maintas gens.
(That many people suffer for having too much pride.)
Track Name: Cosmic Adventure
Here we go
The great cosmic adventure is now at hand
Time to take a stand

Watch my face
The child I was back then is now standing here
And all I feel is fear

Did I just dream
Life seems like thin ice above a lake dark
And the cracks are stark

I don’t trust to swim
The water is full of snags and I might drown
And where is the solid ground

Look at me
You think you see someone who is so sussed
But all you see is dust
Track Name: Depth
When I was younger I walked,
Taking myself a chance.
In the streets of the city where I used to live,
Not dreaming of a door to the rest of my life,
Just thinking of art.
When I met a woman from people town,
With her daughter on her knee.

She asked me to teach her guitar,
As if she could not play.
The joke was that she was better than me,
Knew all the chords and could play then,
Steady and true,
She had depth beneath her touch,
Where I merely surface.

Like the moon up in the sky,
She shone her light on me.
I remember how we talked for days and days,
Remembering we knew each other,
From a long time ago.
When I think of then I see clear skies,
And remember pleasant weather.

She taught me how to love,
And shared with me her home.
Like a fool and a child I didn’t always do
The things that showed her kindness,
But she opened my life.
And as years go past I love her more,
For her depth beneath her surface.

I’d say to her ‘gold’s the best’
She’d answer me ‘with life we’ve blessed’

I’d say to her ‘lets build it tall’
She’d answer me let’s keep it small’

I’d say to her ‘can’t you see?’
She’d answer me ‘it’s life mystery…. Life’s mystery’

Now I’m not so young,
Many years are passing away.
With so many tears and many faced fears,
But yet she still remains here,
God knows why.
She’s the light on my earth and the moon in my sky,
And I still have joy to see her.

And she teaches still how to love,
And tells of the beauty.
And I wrote her this song as I want her to know,
I treasure deep her kindness.
She opened my life,
And as years go past I love her more,
For her depth beneath her surface.
Track Name: Bardo Living
Bardo living’s a weird existence
Passing through one door to head for the next
Never taking anything tangible with you
Not even the script of a life in plain text

My body - your body, we don’t own them
Their atoms are borrowed, in use of the soul
And the soul’s just a fragment, a piece of creation
A laugh of the dancer, tired of being whole

Form to soul and soul to form
Here in this moment there’s a you and a me
Your soul to my soul under the sky
Lets go out walking down by the sea

Your son and my daughter are beyond our controlling
Their birth borrowed atoms to make their soul’s home
Just loaned from the cosmos for moments
Clothing the spirit, till it dissolves like foam

Form to soul and soul to form
Here in this moment there’s a you and a me
Your soul to my soul under the sky
Lets go out walking down by the sea

The laughs of the dancer are fragments of all things
You, I and them are mere ripples in air
Soul to soul we’re one in illusion
Passing through here, but still staying there

The slings and arrows of our childhood memories
We try not to pass them on back down the line
But each dancer’s fragment will seek out its learning
Soul to soul in the long run, it’s all doing fine
Track Name: The House Carpenter
Well met, well met, said the man at the door
Well met, well met, said he
I've just returned from the salt, salt sea
And it's all for the love of thee

So come in, come in, oh my own true love
And have a sip with me
It’s been three forths of a long long year
Since together we have been

Oh I cant come in nor I wont sit down
For I have but a moments time
For they say you are married to a house carpetner
so your heart wont never be mine

And yet I could have married a king's daughter fair And she would have married me
But I forsaken her crown of gold
And it's all for the love of thee

So it’s wont you forsaken your house carpetner
And come along with me
I’ll take you where the grass grows green
On the banks of Italy

So she’s lifted up her little young son
And kisses she gave him three
Saying stay right here my darling little babe
And keep your pop company

Now they’d not been onboard above two weeks
I'm sure it was not three
When his true love began to weep and to mourn
And she wept most bitterly

Are you weeping for your silver and your gold,
Are you weeping for your store
Or are you weeping for your house carpenter
Who’s face you’ll never shall see more

Oh a curse, a curse on you sailor she cried
Yes a curse a curse she swore
You robbed me of my darling little son
So I shall never see him no more

Oh what hills, what hills are those, my love
Those hills that shine like gold?
Ah those are the hill of Heaven, my love
Where you and I can’t go

And what hills, what hills, are those, my love?
That are so dark and cold?
Those are the hills of Hell, my love
Where you and I must go

Now they’d had not been onboard above three weeks I'm sure it was not four
Before there came a leak in the ship
And she sank and she never rose more
Track Name: Mend It
Hey, what would you do with a hole in your heel
A hole in your heel, letting the rain through
What would you do with a hole in your heel
A hole in your heal, letting the rain through
Mend it mend it, that's what you would do
Mend it mend it, that's what you would do

Hey, what would you do with a hole in your sole
A hole in the sole, letting the rain through
What would you do with a hole in your sole
A hole in your spirit, a hole right in you
Mend it mend it, that's what you would do
Mend it mend it, that's what you would do

Did they tell you you’re shit at it, that you’re shit at it
That you’re shit at it, all the way through
Did they tell you your shit at it, push your face deep in it
Push your face deep in it, all the way through
Mend it mend it, that's what you must do
Mend it mend it, you owe it to you

You might have been a ragged arsed kid
Running around in a ragged arse world
You might have been a golden arsed kid
Running around in a golden arse world
It makes no difference, it makes no difference
It makes no difference, it's still your own soul
It makes no difference, it makes no difference
It makes no difference, make yourself whole

To the kids who had beauty, kicked out of all of them
Dreams torn and scattered, deep to their souls
To the kids who excelled and were pushed to be excellent
Never let off from best, deep to their souls
Mend it mend it, that’s what you must do
Mend it mend it, you owe it to you

Hey, what would you do with a hole in your heel
A hole in the heel, letting the rain through
What would you do with a hole in your heel
A hole in your heal, letting the rain through
Mend it mend it, that's what you must do
Mend it mend it, you owe it to you
Track Name: Reason To Mourn
I cant know the hell you love
But i know you've had enough
Some baptise in water some in flames
In flames In flames

Don't you give me a reason to mourn
Don't you give me a reason to mourn
Look into my eyes with all your hate and scorn
But don't you give me a reason to mourn

What has life done to you
All you ever wanted was someone to run to
There' s more to life then what makes you cry
What makes you cry
I won’t say goodbye

Don't you give me a reason to mourn
Don't you give me a reason to mourn
Youll remove the crown of sorrows with which you’ve been adorned
So don't you give me a reason to mourn

Don' t you give me a reason to mourn
Don' t you give me a reason to mourn
Look into my eyes with all your hate and scorn
But don' t you give me a reason to mourn
Track Name: Skin to Skin
To the freaks and the normals shall I raise a drink
And pull up a chair and tell you what I think
But there again, of course I might tell a lie
But on that you’ll have to judge

I can’t swear to you that I’d be strong
I can’t swear to you I’d do no wrong
I might mess things up - you’ll have to wait and see
Perhaps you’ll split your sides with glee

I remember when I was a just a child
I never had the courage to run free and wild
But I dreamt I might one day or so
If I got half a chance to fly

Life gives you wings and clips them too
From the looks of it, it did the same to you
Well here’s a hand - just skin to skin
Let’s pull each other through

We’re not important - but we matter a lot
We have it all - and yet not a jot
Take all your time - in no time at all
And I’ll walk by the side of you

We’ve feet in the dirt - but a head in the sky
We’re quick to laugh - but still prone to cry
Take all your time - in no time at all
And I will walk by the side of you

And if you don’t mind I’ll make a boast
Without fuss or palarver or speech or toast
And it’s this - I’m the best friend you’ll ever have
That’s a real pledge to you

I might not do all you expect of me
Sometimes I might need to feel a little free
But when you need a hand - just skin to skin
I’ll be there to pull you through

We’re not important - but we matter a lot
We have it all - and yet not a jot
Take all your time - in no time at all
And I’ll walk by the side of you

We’ve feet in the dirt - but a head in the sky
We’re quick to laugh - but still prone to cry
Take all your time - in no time at all
And I’ll walk by the side of you
Track Name: Illusion
There’s no side to side, or back and forth, or up and down
No me or you, or light or touch or taste or sound
No sky or ground or sun, or stars, or moon, or earth
No suffering, no joy, no life, no death, no birth

There’s a side to side, a back and forth and up and down
A me, a you, some light and touch and taste and sound
A sky, the ground, the sun, the stars, the moon, and earth
Suffering, and joy, and life, and death, and birth

Nothing here exists, but all things have their existence still
All things are not tangible, but still are not illusional
Are completely beyond anything like a simple truth or simple lie
So a belly laugh will do, just as well as any tear filled eye